Monday, November 14, 2011

Update From CJ

Hello everyone,

I am so sorry that my health prevented me from being here over the summer.  I owe you all an explanation and was too emotionally fractured to do so before now.  I have the doc's okay to slowly pick things up by the end of the year, but I wanted to say something now.

Bottom line is that several things hit at once.  We moved from Macau back to the states where I got really sick and was put on bed rest.  Then, to add to that misery, when I went in for another checkup, I had my routine Mammogram done.  And it didn't turn out as expected.

Cancer is such a scary word and to add it to the other health problems I was having, plus such a huge move...well, I didn't handle it well.  And because Jonathon doesn't start his new job until December...NO INSURANCE.  Can you say OMG expense wise?  To say the least I had major stress as well as being sick.

We did another mammogram, ultrasounds and none of them came back conclusive.  They don't do them quickly, so I was stuck waiting to find out the results for long periods of time.  The constant worry exasperated my other health problems and all I could do was survive day to day.  Finally, we did surgery.  I admit to being terrified.

The thing is, I was pretty sure I didn't have cancer.  My gift told me I was okay, breast cysts run in my family, and I was 99% sure that was what they were seeing.  But I think because I was so emotionally and physically depleted, that little 1% scared the beejeezes out of me.

The final surgery was just a couple weeks ago and I am so grateful to say after all the worry, pain and desperation, it turned out to be a benign cyst and NOT the big C.  But it was an emotional and physical roller coaster of an experience I hope to never go through again.  It cost me almost six months of time where I was literally unable to do anything except wait for the next test to be read.

The scare of having cancer was huge.  I can't imagine actually getting results that said I DID have breast cancer.  I have to tell you, I'm a huge supporter now of breast cancer research.  While I tossed them a few dollars here and there before, now I am full bore, 100% behind them.  No woman should go through even a minute of the terror I did.

So, now that I am pretty much healed from the surgery, the doctor says I can slowly come back to life.  I figure I can pick up the reins to a few things, but other circumstances in my life are so up in the air I doubt I will be back online 100% until after the first of the year.

I hope to be more forthcoming in the next week, so keep your fingers crossed that what I need to get dealt with does so I can get you in the know.

BUT...  The good news is I've been dreaming up a storm so when I finally get to writing again, I'll have plenty of new material!  LOL

Take care all and I hope to be back on track soon!

CJ England


Unknown said...

I am so happy that everything was ok.And I will keep your health in mind and body in my daily prayers.

Phylis said...

Good to hear from you. I hope that your health continues to improve! Missed you! Will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Carrie said...

I am so glad that everything has come together so well for you.

Nay Nay said...

I am happy that your health is improving. Cancer is no joke. I lost too many loved ones and friends to various cancers. I give as much support as I can to cancer research and support programs. I think having a mammogram is the ONE thing I hate to do, but I get one every year, because I lost 2 family members to breast cancer. I also get the other cancer screen (pap smear). Uterine cancer is slowly creeping up there as a major killer of women. Ladies, don't put off your checkups each year. Have faith in the lord, but still get those checks.

C J., thank you for sharing your ordeal with us. I am praying for you to recover and come back to us full time.

SharonJM said...

CJ, I'll be glad when you are back in good health. Prayers to you and Jonathon.

Tamsyn said...

I am happy that everything turned out fine. Take care of yourself!

Mannouchka said...

Dear CJ,
Happy to learn that everything was okay. I will pray for you
Take care
Have a wonderful week-end

Sultry Summers said...

CJ - I completely understand what it is like to be so stressed out over health issues. Very happy you came out of it without the big "C". You were in my thoughts over the summer wondering why I hadn't seen any posts - Like I said in our e-mail, thought you were in some exotic location with a fruit drink. Sorry that wasn't the case and hope you'll soon be back to the complete YOU! Look forward to all the new stories you have dreamed up.

CJ England said...

Thanks, everyone.

It was a very scary time, but with faith and my sweet baboo loving me through it, I survived and came out stronger.

Nay Nay is right. Don't put those check ups off.